eclipsed

my mind has been eclipsed with thoughts of my past and the future.

i remember this time last year…i was stuck. i felt caged in.

i was unhappy with many things in my life and wished so heavily that i could destroy everything that no longer resonated with my soul. i was conflicted, weighing out the scales, until the decision was made for me.

there were times where i just wanted to pack a bag and buy the first ticket i could find out of here.

i am free now, for the most part, yet i still think about that time every now and then. i still think about leaving. but i’m here and i haven’t fulfilled my purpose here yet. there is still much i have yet to do.

so i’m diving deeper into the abyss than i’ve ever been before in the hopes that this time i’ll find it.

whatever it is that i am meant for…

i really hope i find it.